“What’s Tomorrow?” Goldi asks stroking the satin rim of her blanket. It’s her routine question that sometimes prolongs bedtime a bit.
Tomorrow is another day.” I said.
“But what ‘s happens in ‘Another day’? she asks.
I stare out the window into the world held in The Hands that faithfully gives us another day .
“Let’s see… today you woke up and said ‘It’s Earth Day! I need to dress up.’ ”
Earth Day and she dresses up not down. Earth Day- the day we celebrate the beauty we see around us and get into the dirt…..which Goldi seems to become one with at times. On Earth Day she chose to wear a green ruffled dress and a purple bow in her hair. It was her idea. No clashy wrinkly clothes and wind combed hair. Yesterday, she was Pippi, today she was Princess.
“Maybe tomorrow I can wear my pink polka dot dress.” Goldi says with a smile.
“That would be lovely. ” I say.
I start to inch away from her bedside until she asks:
“But Mom, what will I DO tomorrow?”
“Let’s see… I say staring out into the sorry, world full of teasing and pain.
“Today you helped young Janey at school. You read her a book and she liked it so much she said “More!”
” I was sitting with her in the big rocking chair in our classroom,” she says.
Goldi used to speak in tongues. She had all the inflection , expression, and eye brow raising gestures. But we couldn’t understand a word. So after several speech pathology lessons, she was finally passed “Mommy and Daddy” and she began to open up books, see words, and voice them like music.
Goldi feared younger kids. They were like little puppies wandering all over sniffing and slobbering. Goldi jumped into my arms at the sight of kids like Janey. That was Yesterday, today she is sitting by them side by side reading a book.
“Maybe tomorrow you could read The Little Red Hen. ” I suggest.
“Oh, Janey will love that story!” she says.
I stroke her forehead with my fingertips hoping for her eye lids to wander into dreams.
“Mom,” she says gripping her covers ” I don’t want to be scared”
“Well…. I said looking out into the world held by the Hands of the One who lights the day and night.
“You made friends with a Wolf, and an Eagle and you’ve ridden a horse. ”
Goldi stood frozen in her tracks at the sight of Ernie the Eagle. He was a giant mystery towering over her. Ernie was her school Mascot. He made several appearances at assemblies that Goldi refused to attend. The Horse was a part of a field trip activity. She patiently awaited even the most impatient riders who commanded “Giddy up!” But then, when visiting a water park, she ran to Violet the Wolf and hugged her. She high fived Ernie at the school pep assembly. Before that, she was crowned Queen out for a ride on her prized horse and her second grade class cheered. Yesterday, she screamed at the scary unknown. Today, she stands proud of her success.
“What if it’s Saturday? ” Goldi asks.
“Well… I say looking out into the world held in the Hands of One who stills time and quiets all that lives and breathes,
“Your fairy is ready to swing from the treetops. Your princess is ready to dress for the ball.”
Goldi’s toys were lifeless for many months. Fun was laying each one down to sleep. No feeding a doll or taking it for a walk. No setting up for a tea party. For the first time in my “childhood” the complexity of play became mind boggling. What kids were born to do … Goldi was born without. Teaching her the play schemes was like working through the Pythagorean Theorem. But then.. she began to set the dining room table for tea and seat many “guests” for conversation and cookies. She set up a village of castle, fairy house, and doll house, and “Once upon a time ” becomes a reality.
“I could set up a restaurant and my dolls and princesses could be the customers. ” she shares.
“Sounds like real fun.” I say with a kiss.
“It’s nearly 9 o’clock,” I say as I draw up the covers.
“But what about tomorrow?” she asks.
“Well….. I say staring out into the world held by the Hands of the One who guides our dreams according to His good plan, “Tomorrow is one big surprise.”
“What kind of surprise?” Goldi asks with light up eyes.
“A really wonderful one. Better than a tea party, horseback riding like a Queen, making friends with Ernie or Violet, reading to a friend like Janey, or twirling like a Princess. Every Tomorrow has a surprise waiting. ”
Tomorrow seemed liked a million years away since the Doctor’s told us those dreaded words “She’s autistic”. It seemed to make each Today a chore or a hurdle. But now in the accounts of all the Todays – we see the Guide who brings the Hope of what lies in Tomorrow.
“Good night Goldi” I whisper.
But Goldi does not answer. She is busy dreaming about that big surprise in Tomorrow.
Psalm 147: 11 The LORD delights in those who fear him, who put their hope in his unfailing love.
Hebrews 13:8 : Jesus is the same yesterday, today, and Forever.