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Goldie finds out about Temple

“Mom, I have something to tell you.” Goldie had come near to my reading and looked at me with wrinkles in her forehead and wide opened eyes.

“What is it?” I looked up from my book and waited in wonder about the story she would tell.

“She got upset. She threw things, tore paper, and banged her fists on the wall, and yelled!”

“Wow! That is what I call upset.” I said with wrinkles in my own forehead and my own eyes big. I looked out the window and saw a flashback. Goldie was stomping around and screaming. I can’t remember her throwing anything or tearing anything up. But the door was closed so that the sound of her “tantrum” was somewhat muffled. Was she throwing a tantrum because we told her we were going to the store instead of going to the post office? Was it because we made her try ONE little piece of broccoli at dinner? I am too old to remember and Goldie’s temper has been coated with sweetness now.

“I don’t think her mom was upset. She was probably just trying to figure out the best way to help her daughter ”

“She said, she wanted to go into the squeezing machine.” Goldie was extremely serious. She didn’t smile. Her eyebrows were still and straight. “Did I have a squeezing machine?”

“No,” I said, “Here is what we had” I opened up my arms and wrapped them around her.

“Ah, mom that’s way too tight.” she said.

“Sorry” I said dropping my hands to my sides.

“The doctors told her mom to send her to a school that was also kind of like a hospital and live there for the rest of her life!” Goldie stomped one foot. Her eyes seemed to pop out of her face.

“But her mother didn’t listen. She got her a lot of help. She didn’t belong locked up in a school all the time. ” I patted her shoulder and smiled.

“Was I supposed to go to a school like that?” Goldie’s face blushed a bit

“Absolutely not! You learned right along with everyone else! Right?”

“Yeah that’s right!” Goldie’s smile was ear to ear.

“But, her friends laughed at her sometimes. That is not good.”

I knew that some of Goldie’s friends had teased, scolded, bossed her around, excluded her, and done nothing but “not good” things.

“Yes, that is not good. But did she say “I am not good? Did she give up and not even meet anyone and say ‘nice to meet you’. ?

“No mom! She had a friend from school that was really nice to her!” Goldie cried.

“That is a good thing.” I smiled and counted on two hands the many friends Goldie had met and that were nice and did good things.

“Mom, Is she a cowboy?” Goldie wore scrunched up eyebrows.

Every picture of Temple Grandi that I have seen, she is wearing a shirt with a scarf pinned down with a bolo tie.

“I suppose so. She knows a lot about cows. She helped her relatives on a cattle farm.”

“I don’t like cows. I like art. ” Goldie’s nose pointed upward a little and she crossed her arms.

“That is perfect” I told her with a big smile.

“Temple Grandin has autism you know .” Goldie pressed her lips together and looked out the same window I was looking out of. There, we both saw a world that at the moment was green, and sunny, and full of blue sky.

“Yes, I know. ” I said.

“She has autism like me.”

“Yes, she has autism.”

Goldie didn’t say anything more about the Who is Temple Grandin? Book.

We just stared out the window at the summer day knowing what we knew.

Scaredy Cats

Goldie stepped through the front door and into the kitchen. The floor creaked.

“Who is there?” said a cracked voice.

“Momma J ! It’s me!” Goldie stretches her arms out wide with an ear to ear smile.

Momma J hobbles in the kitchen and inches towards Godie until she could touch the tip of her nose.

Goldie eyes looked at though they would pop out of her face.

“Oh! There you are!” said Grandma.

“Where is the cat?” Goldie’s eyes became search lights. Momma J was the only one that liked Benny. Momma J was the only one that Benny liked. Goldie was never going to like him.

He creeped along and pounced. His mean yellow eyes made her heart race. So every time she came to Grandma’s House.

Momma J didn’t answer Goldie. She went back into the living room and sat down in a soft rocker. Goldie peered from behind the kitchen wall. Benny sat on Momma J’s lap twirling his tail until it finally stilled and tucked under his back legs. His mean yellow eyes blinked and blinked until they disappeared.Momma J slid her hand from the top of Benny’s head all the way down his back. Soon, her own blue eyes disappeared too.

“There, there,”Momma J said.

Goldie watched her pet Benny up and down his back. She rocked him back and forth and wore a closed smile.

“Are you going to read your story to Momma J?” I asked wishing Goldie’s grip on my arm would loosen so that the blood circulation would flow freely.

“No, I am scared.” Goldie whispered. “Benny doesn’t like stories.”

Momma J rocked and rocked then she sighed and said,

“I remember when I was a little girl. I would bundle up my little kitty cat and put her in a baby stroller. Then we would go of a walk down the sidewalk.”Momma J looked out the big window and seemed to really see herself walking the cat down the street in a baby carriage.”

Goldie’s grip on me loosened Goldie looked far away. Perhaps she could see the girl walking her cat down the sidewalk.

“Goldie has a good story to read to you.” I told Momma J, “Goldie why don’t you sit in a chair right next to Momma J and read it.”

I pried Goldie’s fingers off of my arm and slid a chair right next to the rocker. Then I nudged her forward. Goldie hovered over the chair and then sat down with a thump.

Benny popped open his eyes and flew off Grandma’s lap. Goldie grabbed onto my arm again this time her nails dug into my skin feeling very much like cat claws.

“Oh dear! Oh dear!” Momma J stood up and shuffled around looking in every direction.

“I guess Benny is scared too.” I told Goldie

“What is HE scared of?” Goldie crunched up her eyebrows.

“He’s of us. We are strangers to him.” I prodded Goldie’s fingers off my arm again.

“He likes Momma J!” Goldie insisted still standing as though her shoulder was glued to mine.

“Of course he does!” I nodded.

Goldie didn’t say anything but her eyes told me she understood. Goldie wasn’t the only scaredy cat.

“Oh dear!” Momma J was walking in circles all around the house.

Goldie looked at her and pressed her lips together. Then she left my side and followed her. She used her own searchlight eyes to look in every nook and cranny for Benny.

Benny couldn’t been seen in any room of the house.Momma J was in tears. Goldie went back to each room twice, then stopped in her tracks in the den. With her head resting on her shoulder, she said, “There he is!”

Goldie pointed to a place in between the cushions on the couch. Benny sat there in the dark couch like cave looking at us with his yellow eyes. Goldie didn’t grab my arm or dig her nails in it. Her bright blue eyes met his bright yellow eyes and they both smiled.

“There, there, Benny,” Goldie said. “Come on, It’s ok.”

Papa J came in and put his arm around Goldie.

“My, My, looks like our little scaredy cat has found a good hiding place.” He bent down on his knees, scooped up Benny, and placed him Grandma’s arms.

Momma J carried him to the rocker and began to stroke his fur from his head all the way down his back. Benny made curls in the air with his tail, then stopped as he closed his eyes.

Goldie sat down in a chair next to Grandma. and opened up her book.

But she didn’t read the words, she read her own story.

“Once upon a time there was a girl named Goldie. One day she bundled up her kitty and put her in a doll carriage. Then she went for a walk down the sidewalk. “

“Yes!” said Grandma smiling with her eyes closed. “I remember.”.

“There, there Benny. There, there. ” said Goldie as she reached out two fingers to stroke Benny’s back too.

Momma J smiled. Benny’s eyes were closed and he smiled. No one was scared.